Saturday, November 23, 2013

In the Face of Anxiety


I feel very out of place.

All of the other students – 5 of them, 3 girls and 2 young men – sit across the waiting room in lounge chairs. They all look either unconcerned or absent-minded as they stare at their smart phones. I remain alone, in a row of chairs outside the double-door opening through the middle of the room, staying as far away from them as I can.

Both of the men are called back relatively quickly, one at a time. The first one disappears out the nearly opaque glass door with a woman in her mid 40’s, the second with a man who looks like he’s in his late 30’s.

I look back down at my phone, trying to ignore the fact that even though everyone here has some sort of important reason, I feel like the only one who can’t handle life.

I know that’s not true. But it feels like it.