Current Emotion: Joy and Jesus

"What do you want, beloved?"

I want to be filled with joy again.

"Why?"

Because this hurts. This anxiety feels like it's choking me...it keeps me away from you, keeps me from truly living my life. I miss the joy-filled days that were only a few months ago, days without fear.

"Do you want the joy of my presence, or to simply not be afraid?"

Diaries of a Summer Intern: Multiple Weeks, Multiple Emotions, Multiple Blessings

My goal at the beginning of this summer was to write out my thoughts and feelings each week, in order to decompress through everything going on during this steady yet crazy summer. Obviously, it hasn't gone according to plan.

Well, not according to my plan.

Current Emotion: Mourning Nana

Dear Nana,

I miss you more with every day that goes by. Even though at the same time I do miss you a little bit less, because I grow more and more accustomed to the vacancy in my life and heart, the paradox of life brings about the ache of missing you penetrating just a little deeper as well.