Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Bullied, Broken, Bruised


“You shouldn’t get those pants. Your legs are too long for skinny jeans, and they make your butt look weird.”

I look at my reflection in the dressing room mirror, turning from side to side to ponder her words. I don’t think I look bad in them; actually I quite like this pair.

“No, I don’t think so. I think I’ll get them.”

She rolls her eyes. “Come on, Cassian, you’re supposed to trust your friends here. You’re going to look like you’re trying too hard if you wear them. I thought you wanted to learn how to dress better?”

With another glance in the mirror, I start to see what she means about the pants.

Monday, October 21, 2013

Small Changes


Joy doesn’t abound in my life right now the way it normally does. Usually I can feel it welling up in me so mightily that it flows over into every little thing I do. But right now, not so much. I’m not joyless (although it did reach that point a few days ago), but I’m not full of it and it’s not contagious the way it has been the past two years. Yet through that, God has spoken deep restorative peace and hope into my heart.