It's funny to say that, really, because I don't consider myself a "writer." And believe me, I know people who have a writers' heart.
One girl in my small group took on a challenge for November of writing something like 5,000 words a day, and she dreams about being published. Another friend is often engrossed in short stories and essays, and everything can be a literary reference with her.
But there is something about writing that cleanses me and helps me process, let go, move on, rejoice, mourn, and have some good solace and downtime. There's been so much going on in my life recently - enough to write a post, if not several, every single day - but I haven't been able to get the words out. I want this blog to be about this things Jesus does in my life, but, if I'm being honest, it's been hard to find Him recently. It's not because of Him so much as it is because of me. I see Him everywhere, but I stand in my own way. I can't get past my own grumpiness, my own despair, and my own despondency. Everything going on is a long story, one that I hope to unfold as it continues and as I'm able to relax and process.
In the meantime, I've decided to take up a writing challenge. I'm doing this because I want to practice putting my thoughts out there again. In high school, I would keep stories in various notebooks, and whatever I was feeling would dictate a scene with various favorites of the people in my head and heart. Now I journal with Jesus a lot, which fills my heart and sustains me, but I want to add in more with a variety of things. I want to stretch myself. Anyway, I found a challenge on Pinterest (of course, because where else do girls find these things? Haha!), and it's mostly good. A few of them I'll be substituting for others, but not many (3 of them are just quantified as "vacation days," anyway). It only has 30 days, but since January has 31 days and today is January 2...well, you know the math.
Maybe I'm just writing out into the cosmos of the Interwebs, but hopefully this reaches and touches the life of at least one person. But, no matter who, you're more than welcome along for the ride. So, here we go, with Day 1.
1. Something You're Looking Forward to This Year.
"Something?" Goodness. So many things. I'll keep it at a few.
I'm graduating undergrad! Due to a long story, it's not sure exactly which semester will be my last, but it'll be some time within the year 2015. WHOOP!
My brother is also graduating, him from high school.
There's a good chance that I'll get to experience my college town during summer break, which I've never gotten to do before.
Two of my best friends are graduating, one from undergrad (and then she's super awesome and will be starting her master's in the fall), and the other from a master's program. I can't wait to celebrate with both of them!
There's a few more things that may be coming down the pipes, but they're not fully in the works yet...so you'll just have to keep your curiosity in check and know that I'll write about them soon.
But, especially, most importantly...I'm looking forward to seeing God move more. My heart has often been moved to a posture of prayer, and I want to form a better habit of spending the consistent time crying out to Him. I love times spent soaking in the Word. This past fall I have gotten so little of both of those, and I'm desperate to have them back in my life with great regularity. I'm overwhelmed in the best way possible with the hopes and dreams of those who are close to me and in my church small group knowing Jesus better. If there's anything I've learned from this hard semester, full of illness and empty of consistent time with God, it's that nothing in my whole life will compare with knowing Him.
So, all of you out there, if there's anything you're wondering about this coming year, anything that you feel is missing from hoping for, or anything at all you think you want to be looking forward to, I pray that it's nothing other than knowing Jesus more along the way.
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